xenithi

I'm nobody's shadow, You know it's true. Nobody cares about a shadow, None of you do. Nobody even knows. Nobody even cares. I don't suppose You even realize I'm there. I'm nobody I guess so are you. Nobody cares about nobody None of us do.

It's the worst feeling you've ever known, The feeling when you're all alone… When all you remember is hate, fear and pain, And faster than you could imagine you're going insane. You try to scream, you try to shout, But there's no one there to help you out. They've left you there without a chance. They walked away without a glance. And you sit there so lonely, The one…and the only. You weep, you wail and you cry, Waiting, ever waiting for the day that you die. The tears will fall. The pain will come. There's only one way for this torment to be done. You close your eyes, you try to dream, But you're awakened by your own scream.

I wish I had saved, All the tears. You Made. Me. Cry. So you could taste, The misery. You Told. Me. Lies. I wish you could drown, Beneath the pain. You Gave. Me. Tears. I wish you could suffer Through all you put me through. You Brought. Me. Fears. I wish you could, Feel the hatred. You Showed. Me. Fire. I wish you could see, Me crying over here. You Lost. Me. Desire. I'll find you. Hunt you down. Don't try to Hide. 'Cause it's just You. Me. And Insanity.

I built myself a wall of paper Around my inner core. But the littlest touch knocked it down Now it's not even there anymore. I built myself a cage of plastic Around this fragile shell. But everything went tumbling, Now lost in my own hell. I built myself a fort of cardboard To protect my tortured mind. But all the taunts still hit their mark For it was all too easy to find. I built myself a safe of steel To hide the real true me. I guess that's the only thing That no one will ever see…

I've been told I have a joyful soul. Yes, my joyful soul of: Shattered Plates and screams "I don't fucking care!" Tears that fall like glass shards Breaking through my fragile shell The last protection My last hope crumbling I've lost all sanity, All sense of reality Hidden behind Happy, lying eyes. Perfectionism is laughed at, But expected. I think I've lost myself, A long time ago in this fucked up madness. A snapshot of my perfect existence: Confusion and Tears and Pain. A joyful soul indeed.

Have you ever felt so lost? As the rain pounds against the ceiling. As everyone around you seems to forget   Everything you stood for.     Everything that you'd ever do. Everything seems too empty. Everything seems too alone. I know you see me crying. Bloody tears of my existence. Craving contact. Craving friendship. Craving love. Craving you. So why do you let me fall? Crash? Burn? Die? Why?

Rip my heart open. Let all my wounds bleed. Who are you joking? I can't even breathe. All of the tears, Just let me free. Trapped within fear. Why don't you see? You're killing me slow. Every cut is too real. Please let me go, You know how I feel. Let all my wounds open. Rip my heart to a shred. Who cares if I breathe? I'm already dead.